January 16th, 2007

Time: 08:02 pm

Today was my first day of classes it wasnt bad at all then i went to lunch watched a movie and now i am here with brooke and vicky debating whether or not we should do a power hour now haha because i dont have to wake up until 1:25 yay!

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January 8th, 2007

Time: 12:47 am

today i was a complete waste of space litteraly i watched greys anatomy and sat on my ass i have become the true definition of couch potato no wonder i feel so shitty tomorrow i might run or something go outside for once i think being indoors all the time makes you sick no physically sick but sick like the sick where you cant tell if anything hurts or youre just making it up.... i think im tired of thinking about nothing either i should probably do something tomoorrow clean pack anything but sit last night i talked to vicky on the phone for a long time i really miss her we have alot of fun i think i just miss my routine even though its not much of anything or importiant i miss just hanging out and mostly laughing all day i want to go to school but no go to class yet thatd be nice just be there but i guess we have to learn i ordered all my books i feel semi accomplished im going to try to knit a hat now good idea not worthless great peace

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January 7th, 2007

Subject: Reflection Time: 01:46 am

Based on the other things ive written i sorta come off as a whiney little bitch come to think of it i feel bad i mean my life was never that bad so someday when i read this i just want to clarify that yes i think i might have gone loco for a little my bad haha just some reassurance that it was never that bad and overreacting was probably no definatly unnessasry

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January 6th, 2007

Time: 09:54 pm

I realized i still had this thing i wanted to write something college is great my classes first semester sucked had bad times and most of the teachers were lame however i did have alot of fun involved myself in alot of scandallll made some really great friends vicky and brooke are my favorites i cant wait to go back i want to pledge in the fall the 13th is soo soon its so good i bought my books today saved so much money half.com is the shit i got some shoes today i dont feel like going out or making a half assed appearance anywhere im sorta tired of just seeing peopel i never even wanted to see im happy at home for now

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Subject: Bringin it backk Time: 09:38 pm

So this live journal thing completely forgot about it until now but i guess when youre on christmas break you forget about alot of things such as the people you used to go to school with and how happy you are just sitting around doing nothing...good feeling but yeah so school college i love i love i love i love i love and forever second you hate highschool college makes up for it but anyway i go back next saturday the 13th probably i just want to be with people from school go back to the normal routine and have some fun...i hated my classes first semester terrible teachers terrible times that will all change lets hope things shape up this semester so well see.....as for new years resoltuion my first would be to not be like i was on newyears theres something about drinking with people you dont realliy know i swear it only makes you sicker luckily i had rebecca to hold my hair back however she could idk bad night not waht i wanted at all but yeah id say im actually goign to think before i act upon things i mean everyone loves scandal but ive had enough haha anyway i miss brooke and vicky and our fun sooo getting back to school will be nice very very nice

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May 2nd, 2006

Time: 06:38 pm

i forgot about this live journal thing...weird not that i have anythign to say i guess things are good pretty good actually actually things are really good yeah i like it alot now

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March 20th, 2006

Time: 03:25 pm

I dont think ive written in this thing in a long time. Probably because i pretty much have nothing good to say. Mostly school is blah weekends are blah everythings kinda blah and i hate it. I hate to say it but ....theres so much more it sucks im fucking stuck here...sorry for complaining i just cant wait to get a new life or something!

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December 15th, 2005

Time: 07:09 pm

I used to like Christmas alot. I really did. Im not sure how much i even like it or care anymore.. Everones so freaking cranky its putting me in a bad mood too. I swear its one thing or another that upsets someone and everyone else freaks out. I mean just let everyone do what they want and say what they want...dont let anything bother you we only have what 5 months ...ugh just be happy wont you. Its partly me but i mean im just doing my thing and trying to make the most of the little thats left.... grr... ba humbug

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December 11th, 2005

Time: 04:22 pm

...whatever the weekend was pretty fun i guesss.....joes cousins were very entertaining i went to eat with them and on friday we had the avon party...sarah is selling avon i think thats funny she got sucked up but she will be good at it and hopefully make some money that would be cool. I liekd the party id want to have more of them...sarah you better read this...have more parties!!!!! thats about it i and yeah we won the steeler game yay i dont have to cry...ok enough goodbye

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November 25th, 2005

Time: 04:18 pm

I hate being confused...i like knowing now and thats it even if it sucks...being confused is just confusing and actually i hate it alot. thats all i can really say....ps..weird i bonded with my brother...it was scary but good...this might be the next step...he is now giving me advice on boys....weird.

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November 16th, 2005

Time: 09:35 pm

...interesting weekend....am i getting myself into somethinggggg crazyyyyyyy....yessss but i loooooveee ittttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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November 14th, 2005

Time: 01:25 pm

So i dont even know what to say. I keep going back and forth with people and everything. I dont mean to come off as a bitch but its like i can only deal with so much until i get annoyed and when one thing makes me really upset or annoyed so does everything else. Last night i pretty much was mean to everyone because everything just kept annoying me. Everyone was ten times louder than they reall were and it was scary because i felt like i fight seriously crash because i couldnt even think about where i was going anymore. And i felt bad and said sorry because i really was but i dont even know waht to say i dont think ive ever been that annoyed and actually said something. Plus its like alot builds up and then in the end i say sorry but dont really mean it because i dont know i thought i wanted soemthing back but if theyre annoying me that bad over nothing ...is it really worth it. I mean i like to pretend theres no problem because i didnt think there was but thats just so confusing now. And now i feel really bad because i was mean to everyone. Plus yesterday was just so fucking stupid and stressful. Id rather just forget it. Ok now that i ranted i feel better. I never actually felt that bad about it. So i guess thats ok then. Wow better now lol. Sorry everyone i wasnt nice to.

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November 1st, 2005

Time: 03:13 pm Current Mood: calm

I Never go on this. Its weird i never think about it. Things are mostly the same i guess sorta diffrent but who really cares. I dont talk to garrett anymore which is most likely a good thing. I dont mind being single is nice. I can finally have friends who are boys and finally do whatever i want and not really care or worry that when i get home ill get accused or flirting with another guy.. whatever. but yeah its been nice. Soccer ended and im working now which is good because i need money for so many things. We need to plan senior trip and i need money for just stuff like clothes and that kind of stuff. Ive been very busy lately even though soccer ended. I mean i like to sit around but i just cant i dont even feel like just sitting. Its almost like i miss all that running around. I turned in 3 college applications i feel better. Penn State has been in, gannon got send, and mercyhurst. I really liek the way gannon looks and im going to vistit very soon. I hope i like it but im also going up to see the penn state in erie which also looks nice. Im probably gonna apply to some school close to here so maybe who knows actually. School is ok right now. I hate the first quarter its always my worst...everyone else does the best that quarter and i do terrible i swear it sucks. Im really tired of school actually i think i have serioritis already which sucks because i can hardly do anything i put everything off to the very last second and then im like uuuhh why didnti just study....but whatever. So far senior year has been pretty good. Everything minus school because that sucks mostly. Alright well that is it for updating ill say soething better later...i guess

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October 11th, 2005

Time: 06:06 pm Current Mood: pensive

Im not really sure what mood im in. Homecoming was alot of fun...i guess some parts were sucky but the more i think about it, the less i care. Everything is out of my hands. There was dancing and everything. When the brandnew song came on no one knew the words but me lindsay sarah and reba...then jake and michelle sang them too. Its a good song too bad no one knew it. Then after the dance i went to karas which was pretty interesting. Sarah and i both got some boyfriends..but yeah not much to say because i dont feel like explaining it. Mostly im cranky and tired...thats it.

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October 4th, 2005

Time: 12:12 pm

I think youre stupid. And that definatly wont change

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September 28th, 2005

Subject: You love it Time: 11:29 pm Current Mood: ecstatic

The past week ive had the kyri disease. Aka this horrible sickness that everyone has or will have. I promise. nothing too exciting. Mostly stress, work, throwing up. Good stuff. I went to kent state this weekend. I went to the "real cancun" intersting. Overall i came back to shit load of problems but what else is new. In my life ive realized 1 dont say anything you dont mean because it WILL be taken out of context. in other words i have no intentions of killing myself, or atleast not now. 2 Parents only make a situation A more confusing B make you like a complete idiot so heads up 3 be lucky if you have friends like i do who even after i turn in a psycho crazy hungover bia is nice enough to say i love you. I think if i were any one else in any other life id be fine. Im just really sick of everything being so stupid. I just want soccer to end along with many other things. Thats all i really mean i just wanna start doing things i actually wanna do cause there are people everywhere trying to make thigns good again. Thats it.

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September 19th, 2005

Time: 02:00 am Current Mood: cheerful

This week was really hectic i mean like lots of soccer games and busywork and boring stuff. School is ussually really entertaining though. The week had a few days when i was sorta feeling like i might kill myself but then i got through it. Today was friday and i got lots of english shit that is pointless and stupid. But its the little things that make me the happiest...aka this very cute new couple that i helped bring together. I loved watching them at the game. Today was ok i guess cause i got out of bio, for this assmebly. i had to make this speech about mr. cario. It went ok minus the fact that greg and ali just sat there and made fun of me. I dont really mind though because everyone just told me how they heard them but its ok because in the end everyone will figure out that they are both really gay and have no friends. I dont even care that im posting it because one no one willl read this and i like to keep a mental note of how fucking stupid some people are. But other than that i went to party city and got some really good stuff for the football game and the tailgating it ended up being really fun and everyone came. The game was also really fun. i got to talk to alot of people that i havent talked to in a long time. It was nice though seeing alot of people. We won the football game which was even better and then i had a very long night....but now im home and really tired. Im going to the movies with garrett tomorrow to see that really scary emily rose thing. AHHH haha but then after i cant wait to do something fun. I have a lot to look forward to in the next weeks. Im going to kent state next weekend to vistit abby with some people then hte next weekend will just be fun then homecoming with eric. Other than that everything is really good. I finally dont care about anyting with greg. I mean Fuck it its over move on im done lol thats it....woah it feels good to mean it....im tired and i have a game at 11 ahhhh!!!

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September 13th, 2005

Time: 02:05 pm Current Mood: content

So the first week of school was the first week of school. Nothing exciting there. i was really scared for bio but suprisingly we took the first quiz and everyone did well because we all got the same score lol. But yeah so now i just have to outline the chapter to get some more points. Other than that the only class i truely hate is english. Its so boring. And we get the stupidest assignments becase she thinks just because you didnt take Ap you are dumb as a rock. But anyway enough about school. Friday we all tailgated after a very stupid soccer practice. It was alot of fun and a really good turnout. I really like how eveyrone in our grade even people you like never talk to always join in. Its nice. Then we went to the game which was fun and we won 14-10. It was a good game so already we won a game and that means we are in fact way better than 05. Then i stayed at the game for a while and hung out then went to zachs after. it was fun we just ate all the extra tailgating food. Then saturday i went to look at homecoming dresses with reba and kenz. Im still looking lol. Then i saw garrett got icecream watched closer, hungout etc. Reba is coming over now so i gotta go.

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September 10th, 2005

Time: 05:32 pm Current Mood: numb

So school started. Its ok. Bios a bitch. English is fucking gay. Everything else is alright. I have alot of classes with people i want to actually see. Of course at school theres the occasional things youd be happy to never see again....but that happens. I dont have much else to tell. Lots of things are coming up that will be fun. Like homecoming and stuff. But yeah i dont know what else to say about anything. Im sorta just sick of getting pissed of by little things.. i mean let me people talk and fuck them for every untrue thing they could say. ok enough said bye

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September 7th, 2005

Subject: fuck you if you want Time: 12:17 pm Current Mood: grumpy

Ugh school is soo soonn. Things have been really stupid lately because some people are so fucking immature and really need to just realize that its not unfair, and if they dont get the memo then just go fuck yourself because its pathetic. On a lighter note i have my first soccer scrimmage today. Tant pis, il est tres nasty. haha tant pis.. well anyway the past few days have been alright. i saw the forty year old virgin with reba ryan and garrett then yesterday just hung out got a few funny phone calls in the night from some funny people. But yeah nothing too exciting. Today is like the last day of real summer i guess and i have soccer and im so sick of it, like thinking about schoool. There are a few people i really just dont care to see. I guess the senior year is supposed to be fun so it will be alirhgt. So far i have alot of classes with friends. And maybe once the year begins some people will stop being such losers and grow some balls to act their age...if not no big deal i dont really need them anyway. Ok well i guess sarah and some other people are cominng over soon....so later!

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